Mom would have been 65....

Today turned out to be harder than I thought

it was going to be.  As I was sitting at my computer

trying to get some pictures for Brooke to put

in the book for Grandma Great, Zaners was standing 

next to me and I said Moms name. 

Zane looked at me and said  "thats not grandma!"
Instant tears! For those of you

who remember how hard it was form me to

accept that I was pregnant with Zane....this was
one of the many reasons why.
I knew that he would never know her.
 I know what you are all thinking....he knew her
before he came here.  I know that

deep down...I really do.  It doesn't change how hard that

was to hear tonight.  He doesn't know her like my other

kids did and that makes my heart hurt.
It also made me realize that I only have one picture
of her in my home.  Shame on me!  I have now sent
some to costco to be printed! I will be sending some of
Grandpa Wilding too....I don't want my children to forget them!