Today turned out to be harder than I thought
it was going to be. As I was sitting at my computer
trying to get some pictures for Brooke to put
in the book for Grandma Great, Zaners was standing
next to me and I said Moms name.
Zane looked at me and said "thats not grandma!"
Instant tears! For those of you
Instant tears! For those of you
who remember how hard it was form me to
accept that I was pregnant with Zane....this was
one of the many reasons why.
I knew that he would never know her.
I know what you are all thinking....he knew her
before he came here. I know that
one of the many reasons why.
I knew that he would never know her.
I know what you are all thinking....he knew her
before he came here. I know that
deep down...I really do. It doesn't change how hard that
was to hear tonight. He doesn't know her like my other
kids did and that makes my heart hurt.
It also made me realize that I only have one picture
of her in my home. Shame on me! I have now sent
some to costco to be printed! I will be sending some of
Grandpa Wilding too....I don't want my children to forget them!
It also made me realize that I only have one picture
of her in my home. Shame on me! I have now sent
some to costco to be printed! I will be sending some of
Grandpa Wilding too....I don't want my children to forget them!
3 comments:
So sorry Jennie! That must be so hard - I can't imagine. Sending love and hugs your way:)
That's been the hardest thing for me!!! Although Kolbie and Miriam were born before she died, they don't even remember her at all because they were so young. Sawyer wasn't even born yet. Somedays it hurts to know they never had the wonderful opportunities to be Grandma Curtis' "favorite Kolbie", "favorite Miriam" and "favorite Sawyer". She was one amazing mom!! Love you!!
I can't imagine the blessings in store for those who lose a loved-one too early.
hugs.
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